wow…. id never thought id see the daywhen “freinds” leave freinds behind. everybody get this when a freind says shes fine and you know she really isnt dont do the bitch ass move that you all did today…. freinds come before anything… when a freind just walks away you run after them you dont just let them be…. at that moment i saw what good freinds you all wer….. too see her just cry walking alone to find my self standing next to her trying to confert her wow i just saw that as fucked up to the max …. knowing that she was soppose to be with all of you wow to know you just left her that hit me the most if she seems fine and you know somethings wrong dont play it off be by her side….. i get it you all were hungry ohhh welll i guess to you everything that matter is food not freinds. at that moment i noticed she needed her freinds more than ever but they wer nowhere to be found at all. when you know she cried before you really really know that shes not ok nobody gets over it in just 2 periods. you all pissed me offff…….. you know who you are … the person who was crying if you ever need a freind to talk to and you find your self alone or you feel like your “freinds” dont want to hear it from you because they alredy warned you …. then come look for me im all ears ill listen to you and hopefully i can give you advice….
i dont know what to do any more its too much stress to much pain everybody hates me and few love me im tierd of this…. im thinking of just ending everypain i cause eversecond that im still here it just gets worse… wooh that sounds hella emo but its all true i mean somebody tell me if i havent caused anyof you pain or stress at one piont. its just day after day i feel like nobody cares .. ive lost completly everything but 2 or 3 people and im tiered of just hurting every body theres only one person that im here for and that person dosent know what to do who to choose and its frustrating i dont want to give up and im not but everyday im here the pain just gets worse im 15 and i feel like im dying its stupid i feel like ima get a heart attac and im tiered of not being able to breath…. i just … i just need advice i need help !!!!!can anybody do that ???
so lately ive noticed that at the spot there is alot of hate going towards me and i feel like wehen you guys say hi ur being fake honestly if you dont want me there ill leave no problem with that but i hate FAKE people. seriously if you guys have a probl;em w me going out with him i dont care none of you know what really happened how she treated him so all of you are blaming him for it. quit acting like asses to us u have a problem with it then say something about it dont pur a fake smile on because that just makes me even more mad. im tiered of having to seee u guys do that im sure u all talk about it behind my back but what ever thats called backstabing wich honestly you all do so its no surprise to me!!!!! just seriouse ly you have something to say say it to me !!!!! (p.s i dont care if i spelled stuff wrong)
im tiered as hell but i cant go to sleep i have to do this stupid project its hella alot of typing hate it alot ugggg i think i might switch teachers next cemester ugggg but idk im tired my eyes are about to give in im soooooo tiered wish i could sleep i hate doing work but need the grades god why cant life be easy uggg hopefullly i dont falla sleep while i finish my project or hopefully tomorrow im not deadand sleep during class well see i guess tommorow… uggg well i have to get to doing this dstupid project night people… SORRY IF I DIDNT SPELL THINGS RIGHT IM OUT OF IT LOL :D
today was a good day i liked it so much
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CARLA…..
SO IM GLAD EVERYTHIMG IS BACK TO NORMAL ….i just wished that everybody would stop bagging on me GALE that specialy means you… you make me feel bad but im glad that you say it strait out to my face nd hopefully you dont talk behind my back i really dont want to hear it and i could clearly care less of what you make think of me… that goes to everybody else too;…. other than GALE putting me down i had a fantastic tuesday….ACTUALY I WOULD SAY THE BEST DAY OF THIS YEAR SO FAR… some bad stufff that o wasnt expecting happened but alll got worked out in the end
THIS GOES TO EVERYBODY: but when it comes to talking behinde my bak…well all im asking is for you to tell me to my face thats the one thing i hate the most people who talk behind my bak …… honestly dont spare my feelings like you do to your
“freinds”say it to my face please … ican take anything that i have coming for…!!!!!Your grammar HELLA SUCKS!!! I’m not going to talk behind your back well I might but your going to hear it!!! Cause I’ll be right behind you XP… I’ll scream out across the quad and everything… “HEY CHELI YOU’RE SUCH AN ASSHOLE!!!” haha jkjk You are going to break in front of me!!!
today was a good day i liked it so much
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CARLA…..
SO IM GLAD EVERYTHIMG IS BACK TO NORMAL ….i just wished that everybody would stop bagging on me GALE that specialy means you… you make me feel bad but im glad that you say it strait out to my face nd hopefully you dont talk behind my back i really dont want to hear it and i could clearly care less of what you make think of me… that goes to everybody else too;…. other than GALE putting me down i had a fantastic tuesday….ACTUALY I WOULD SAY THE BEST DAY OF THIS YEAR SO FAR… some bad stufff that o wasnt expecting happened but alll got worked out in the end
THIS GOES TO EVERYBODY: but when it comes to talking behinde my bak…well all im asking is for you to tell me to my face thats the one thing i hate the most people who talk behind my bak …… honestly dont spare my feelings like you do to your “freinds” say it to my face please … ican take anything that i have coming for…!!!!!
i had an awsome night last night…HOMECOMING was the bomb i got to spend it with people i love…. ther was ups and downs to the whole night but in all i had lots of fun….. i loved the end of the whole night after it was all over …. i just wished i had that last dance but thers always my senior year … i had lots of fun dancing with him tho we realy didnt go to the beat of the songs but its okay lol we still had funn and thats all that matters … yeah i know about her trying to ruin the night but i wasnt going to let her so boo her she didnt get her wishes so whatever she can go f*** her self for all i care… im all it was a fantastic time took lots of pictures and just felt like my night even tho it wasnt… i just cant wait till senior year > .<
so i just read the Monday thingy you wrote yesterday and i just wanted to say that i kinda know what your going through and i know that well we really don’t talk that much but if you ever think that nobody from the group wants to hear what your feeling or about anything you might have in your mind i’m hear to talk to….. ill listen to anything you have to say and maybe even give you some advice about it.:D
P.S….so yeah i just want to let anybody know that if you ever have a problem and just need to vent you can vent to me i wont tell anyone … i promise :P
He did what to you? Nothing!?!? Do anything? Say anything? Anything? No? Okay its fine he did it and you didn’t anything so its fine. Its really sad to hear nothing especially when I expected for you to SAY something. Maybe like “Do you know I’m taken right?” Okay you kinda told me about it. Afraid of my reactions are you? Well I was afraid of never getting you back after we broke up. I was afraid of losing you. I was afraid of not being good enough for you. I was afraid of finding out that you really didn’t like me. Scared of how I take things cause you KNOW how I would take things? In the beginning I just thought you liked me to keep me away from someone. That eventually went away. But I don’t know again. I mean honestly all I ever hear from you are the negatives about me. How I don’t do this and how I don’t do that. You really know how to make a person feel loved. I regret it now. EVERYTHING! I want to take it all back. That’s the truth. I regret EVERYTHING!! Falling for you, going out of my way, chasing you even when you said not to… the list goes on. I regret EVERYTHING!!! Tell me did you stop talking to him right after it happened? Or after my reaction? I’m sure on that very day you talked to him like all was good. Stopped talking to him right after we talked about it. But what do I know? I know nothing. I already think I don’t make a good boyfriend and you don’t make it any better. Go get someone new. I don’t even care anymore. I promised you that I would hang out with you this whole week. I didn’t get to see you the whole Monday. Sorry for not being able to see you. Tuesday I went to Panda to get food and didn’t get to see you after that. Sorry for wanting to eat. Sorry for not calling you cause I had to catch up on my school work. BTW I called you back TWICE!!! No pick up. Wednesday, I went to Mcdonalds and bought US food! What do I get from you? “I’M SERIOUS!!!” Nag, nag, and more nag. I asked you to eat the food with me so we could spend some time together. What do you say? “Go eat by yourself!” You don’t see it that way then don’t. IDGAF!!! Why don’t you just break up with me and get yourself a better boyfriend?
honest to god gale i really dont get why ur still with her shes an ass you could do way better than her yeah i knoe you “fell” for her but thers always more girls out ther waitimg for a guy like you to show up and your just waisting ur time on this one chick who really isnt worth it!!!!!
